Tana Mongeau Addresses Downhill Relationship With Jake Paul – ‘I’m So Unhappy’ – Perez Hilton

January 2, 2020 Off By WhoThatCelebsRS

Tana Mongeau is getting more raw and real than ever before in her latest video upload titled “the truth about everything.”

The 40-minute vid, posted to her YouTube channel on Sunday, touches on her complicated relationship with Jake Paul, mental health struggles, drug relapses, and more.

Reflecting on 2019, Mongeau explained that she is currently at “the lowest” she’s ever been:

“This year is coming to a close and I’m just not happy. I’m so unhappy with the way my relationship with Jake looks in the public eye and I’ve done so much pretending that I don’t care what I do. So it’s my fault.”

The MTV star added:

“I loved Jake so much, I still do… but I did so much of being the cool girl and not caring because I wanted to do life with this person and I wanted to see them happy and thrive and I wanted to show them that there are people that will accept you for who you are. I think I put so much of myself into Jake that I lost myself, and that’s not his fault. And I’m not blaming him for that at all. It’s just the reality. I don’t regret it.”

But before she got into more of what’s been going on as of lately, she took a look back even further to the start of her relationship with Logan Paul‘s younger brother:

“The second I walked into Jake Paul’s world, there was no taking me out of it. I was so consumed. And I wish we would have relished in that time so much longer. Long talks and hooking up and no one knowing. It was just so simple and amazing.”

However, it wasn’t long before things began to shift, drawing similarities between their relationship and “a drug,” Tana explained:

“I loved the time I spent with Jake so much and who I felt like he was making me…. I loved who I was when I was with him so much that I kind of put on rose-colored glasses. I realized I would do anything to feel this feeling forever.”